I wonder who else still will check back this site. Well, I will. Whenever I feel like going back to the past.
I don’t know why I’m blogging back here again. Maybe because I don’t really want people to read what I blogged? I just need a place to vent you see.
I don’t know what’s happening to me now. I don’t want to get involved in any games anymore. It’s too tiring. Too many emotions as days passed. Nope, I’m not playing any games as well. I like how things are happening now. But I’m afraid that I’m sending out the wrong signals to the wrong person sometimes. Am I too selfish?
I’m neither giving up nor holding on. Contradicting yeah? Idk if this makes sense.. Aiya I’m contented with the situation now really. At least way better than I thought it would be. I’m not expecting anything anymore. Not because I gave up, but I know it’s meaningless. How things gonna turn out is not gonna depends on me anymore. Sigh I don’t want the same old history to repeat. I won’t be able to take it again.
Read more @ smileofsmiles.livejournal.com!
Hopefully dont need anymore protected posts! Haha.
Since I guess most know of my new livejournal I shall just reveal it. Actually it had been revealed the previous post, right at the bottom. You just have to highlight it lol. Yeap there you go, the title says it!
I actually hope for something miracle to happen today. I actually have the urge to solve all those misleading things which happened. But I didn’t. Cos I know things wont work out that way. I got a feeling that the result will be disappointing. So I decided not to face the truth? I’m actually waiting for that day you know. Let’s clear our debts, and maybe I can clear up everything as well.
It sucks hiding things from people. I know “paper cannot hold fire”, which means like people can actually have a little hint on what’s happening right. But different people tend to read things differently, like different mindset? So it’s like I can’t assume things as well?
Okay you can stop coming back here for any updates, cos updates will all be at lj. But maybe sometime I’ll update over here if I want some stuff to be protected. Cos lj doesn’t have guess the pw thingy, then it’s like I might just want someone to read it, like not even for friends.